because I read everything I had so far and I loved it so, so, so hard!
Except, then I wrote this one chapter that I loved a little too hard, and when I sat down to write the next chapter it was kind of like maybe I'd set the bar too high and
But that was okay, I figured I'd take a day or two to let it simmer. You know, brainstorm a little. Everything was TOTALLY under control.
Then REAL LIFE happened and I got stuck doing mommy things and Peanut was like
So that one day of brainstorming turned into
and I just now went to look things over so I could yanno, find my groove. But instead of
I ended up staring at my words like
and the more I read through the more it felt as if
All I could do was go talk to my friend who's also in the middle of revisions and guess what? She's revising SO HARD she got a sty in her eye so she's like
That's dedication you guys. I'm not even close to sty level yet. But this was really bugging me, so I asked her
then she used the force, because that's how she rolls, and she was all
Um. Yeah. This is why I'm glad I have smart friends. Because, really. That's all this is. I'm kind of scared. Scared this will be really good and I won't be able to do better. Scared it's not good enough and I'll end up broken and bitter and calling QVC at 3 in the morning
But the reality is, it falls somewhere in between. I'm a good writer. I know that. I can do this. It will never be absolutely perfect, but I can and I WILL get this MS to be as good as it can be. That's why I have amazing support. I have people who are honest and loving and helpful to call me out on my
when I write something awesome. Sure, most of the time
and I just want to
But that's okay because
I just can't forget that even though writing can be really scary and hard
I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
It's going to be so, so, so worth it because I'll be one step closer to
For now I just have to take one of these
and I'm sure that when I look at my MS again I'll be like
It's not so bad after all.